2005-01-02
It's raining, unseasonably warm, quiet, and I'm listening to Johnathan Rice and Damien Rice. (No relation.) It's been appropriately hectic as the holidays trudged forward like a slow but determined mongol horde, and now, in the warm, rainy night air, it's plenty and mercifully still.You know, I want to go into New Year's with Kelly June and Christmas and all that, but I really just need relax on the counch for a few hours and eat Oreos. I first must say this about Kelly, though: I adore that girl. In terms of articulating this sentiment over an instant message, I am an unparralleled master. I'm so good at it, I could technically classify it as my superpower. Articulating it over the phone, I am far inferior, though am still not without my charm. But articulating it face-to-face? Appalling. And I'm supposed to have a way with words! I'm a comminucator by trade and nature! I write drama!
And she's sitting there about to get on the train for home this afternoon and we hadn't addressed the possibility of, um, a relationship because I didn't want to risk putting a damper on the weekend. But I had to tell her how I felt, otherwise I would've had to start loudly berating myself on the walk back to my car. So I'm sitting there trying to work up my grapes and I'm looking at her and I want to tell her how I can't even look at her hand without wanting to hold it, and how she smiles with every square inch of her head and how explosivley happy she makes me, so I take a breath and try to broach the subject, and and I'm going on and on and I swear to God, you guys, I actually said,
"You... I just... I just really like the crap out of you."
Happy New Year, Andrew John Hobin.
Way to start it off with a bang.
What is it about a pretty girl that leaves my body of vocabulary and rhetoric looking like a display in the window of a butcher shop? Is there some hormone that emits from a woman's body and produces in a man a stupidly euphoric sensation not unlike that of a night of heavy drinking and dropping acid?
"Come on courage, teach me to be shy."
Happy New Year.
-Andy